I felt you.
You were a pea, then a lemon, then an eggplant.
I followed advice. I read a gazillion books. I started a journal for you.
Could you tell I was scared?
I talked to you and I sang to you.
I wasn’t ready, but then you were here.
All ten toes and healthy.
Big eyes. Dark hair. Long feet. Beautiful.
And that day I realized what it feels like to be in love.
I hadn’t known until I held you.
And so I held you.
I shared you with my mom and sister.
I realized that I would spend my life doing things to make you happy because that is what would make me happy.
There were times I wanted to give up.
But you’ve restored my sanity.
You’ve made me want to run to my own mother
to tell her I get it…
And then you smile and say, “Mahm…” in the way that you do.
I will open my heart and love will rain down all over you.
You will laugh and I will do it all over again.
I made you
you made me.
I finally realized that giving glory to God for everything and redirecting the focus to Him is the only thing that brings pure, real, natural joy to my heart.
LIFE HACK IF SOMEONE IS REALLY EXCITED ABOUT SOMETHING TRY TO BE EXCITED FOR THEM OR AT LEAST PRETEND TO BE AT LEAST SLIGHTLY INTERESTED BECAUSE NOTHING FEELS WORSE THAN EXPRESSING SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY ONLY TO HAVE PEOPLE TELL YOU TO CALM DOWN OR IGNORE YOU COMPLETELY